I went to Refuel (my church's weekly prayer meeting) a week ago...and it lasted for three hours as the prayer flowed freely and with power. However. My body was strained beyond what these diseased bones could bear....and for the third hour, I was in extreme pain. I stayed in bed all day Thursday. Friday I had a medical appointment that I struggled through and I crawled back into bed at the first opportunity...
And I stayed there for Saturday
Sunday-I started steroids....and stayed in bed.
Monday--had to cancel an appointment. And stayed in bed.
Today (Tuesday) I have to go get a grocery order I placed with Walmart's pickup service. And I need to go to the computer repair store to swap my broken Acer with a used (but newer than mine) computer. My arthritic hands dropped my computer yesterday and to catch it I grabbed it by the screen and hyperextended the hinge. Believe it or not, to buy the hinge assembly and pay for the repair would cost me more than it would cost to trade it in for a slightly newer Acer that my computer guy has in his store. So hopefully we can just put my hard drive from this computer into the newer one and install Windows 10 and I'll be good to go...until I drop and break that one too.
I don't know how I'm going to do all that this morning...and then on Wed have to go on the bus to an appointment over an hour away....and this appointment I can't cancel. Maybe by then the steroids will have worked to kick this tenacious RA into submission. I pray.
I have faltered in my determination to learn a bit of New Testament Greek. I haven't picked it up in a few days except to wipe spilled applesauce off of the binder this morning---but that's another whole story. I have not yet conceded defeat. I have begun work on the James chapter 2 memorization...and also am still working on perfecting the last two verses in chapter 1. It's such a struggle to memorize when your brain just isn't working right. I find that unless I continuously review without missing a day--then all I have "learned" is forgotten, disappearing into the mists of faulty memory. It makes it very hard to keep moving ahead when I constantly have to look back as well.
Anyway. Pleases forgive me for this meandering post. It's 3:30 AM and I cannot be held accountable to proper format or the need to focus.
God has been close by, building footbridges for me to cross streams too deep for me to forge. And giving me the strength to endure this pain. I'm on track with my Bible reading - reading the whole Bible chronologically this year. I'm almost finished with the Old Testament. My prayer life still could use more focus and structure. Isn't God great though? When we don't have the mental equipment for functional structure, he meets us half way and honors the prayers we do raise...and often, failing words, my spirit brings a concern and I just LIFT it to him...I spread it before him like Hezekiah spread out the threatening letter written by Sennacherib the Assyrian king who was intent on decimating Jerusalem. King Hezekiah took that letter to the temple and spread it out before the Lord and God came through. So sometimes I do the same. I lay it out there and say "Lord, you see this??? This person or that situation needs your help. I bring it (them) to you for your touch." And he does.
Don't worry if you are not very verbal or if words to not come easily to you. Raise your heart. The Spirit will fill in the necessary words. "who best to know what is in the heart of a man but the spirit that is in a man?" And the spirit we each have is also merged with the Spirit of God if you are a believer in Y'shua and that Spirit takes our prayers to the throne of Christ with "groans that cannot be uttered." All he needs is a heart that has been cleansed from sin via salvation and also by confession/repentance and a heart that yearns to see the purposes of God accomplished on this earth and in the lives around us. He does the rest.
Please keep me in your prayers that this disabling pain would fade and I can once again get back to my life, as limited as it is.
God bless each of you today and every day...may you grow in his Presence and Peace.
And I stayed there for Saturday
Sunday-I started steroids....and stayed in bed.
Monday--had to cancel an appointment. And stayed in bed.
Today (Tuesday) I have to go get a grocery order I placed with Walmart's pickup service. And I need to go to the computer repair store to swap my broken Acer with a used (but newer than mine) computer. My arthritic hands dropped my computer yesterday and to catch it I grabbed it by the screen and hyperextended the hinge. Believe it or not, to buy the hinge assembly and pay for the repair would cost me more than it would cost to trade it in for a slightly newer Acer that my computer guy has in his store. So hopefully we can just put my hard drive from this computer into the newer one and install Windows 10 and I'll be good to go...until I drop and break that one too.
I don't know how I'm going to do all that this morning...and then on Wed have to go on the bus to an appointment over an hour away....and this appointment I can't cancel. Maybe by then the steroids will have worked to kick this tenacious RA into submission. I pray.
I have faltered in my determination to learn a bit of New Testament Greek. I haven't picked it up in a few days except to wipe spilled applesauce off of the binder this morning---but that's another whole story. I have not yet conceded defeat. I have begun work on the James chapter 2 memorization...and also am still working on perfecting the last two verses in chapter 1. It's such a struggle to memorize when your brain just isn't working right. I find that unless I continuously review without missing a day--then all I have "learned" is forgotten, disappearing into the mists of faulty memory. It makes it very hard to keep moving ahead when I constantly have to look back as well.
Anyway. Pleases forgive me for this meandering post. It's 3:30 AM and I cannot be held accountable to proper format or the need to focus.
God has been close by, building footbridges for me to cross streams too deep for me to forge. And giving me the strength to endure this pain. I'm on track with my Bible reading - reading the whole Bible chronologically this year. I'm almost finished with the Old Testament. My prayer life still could use more focus and structure. Isn't God great though? When we don't have the mental equipment for functional structure, he meets us half way and honors the prayers we do raise...and often, failing words, my spirit brings a concern and I just LIFT it to him...I spread it before him like Hezekiah spread out the threatening letter written by Sennacherib the Assyrian king who was intent on decimating Jerusalem. King Hezekiah took that letter to the temple and spread it out before the Lord and God came through. So sometimes I do the same. I lay it out there and say "Lord, you see this??? This person or that situation needs your help. I bring it (them) to you for your touch." And he does.
Don't worry if you are not very verbal or if words to not come easily to you. Raise your heart. The Spirit will fill in the necessary words. "who best to know what is in the heart of a man but the spirit that is in a man?" And the spirit we each have is also merged with the Spirit of God if you are a believer in Y'shua and that Spirit takes our prayers to the throne of Christ with "groans that cannot be uttered." All he needs is a heart that has been cleansed from sin via salvation and also by confession/repentance and a heart that yearns to see the purposes of God accomplished on this earth and in the lives around us. He does the rest.
Please keep me in your prayers that this disabling pain would fade and I can once again get back to my life, as limited as it is.
God bless each of you today and every day...may you grow in his Presence and Peace.
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