Today was supposed to be a day of rest for me as I have been quite busy this week and my body is feeling it. I did sleep ok and then had another nap in the morning. However my plan has turned on me because now, unoccupied, my thoughts have turned against me. Replaying some of the most horrific and regrettable moments throughout my life. I do think I have some PTSD in relationship to some of the times of pain I had where I was driven to tears and even screaming. There are four instances like that. Each one due to the ignorance and incompetence of medical professionals.
The summer is ending.
The first hurricane of the season has its sights on Florida. God whispers "Do you trust Me?" And I confess my trust in him. "Lord, You know I do" I know that that doesn't mean we will be unaffected by every hurricane that comes this year. But I do know that if it comes, we will be ok. Even if the basement floods, it could be an opportunity to clean out the downstairs. Just dump everything into a dumpster and wave to it "Good bye"
I know that God will be in control..and my fretting and fear and anxiety do not make the situation one iota better. Implacable Peace is my goal.
Speaking of "iota"'s I will be auditing a course in Greek along with my friend who is in seminary. She had an extra textbook and there is a series of 22 lectures on YouTube that are free of charge. I do not expect to finish with the ability to converse in Greek. But I do anticipate that it will help me in my Bible reading and study. And it will divert me by giving me something to think about other than bad memories.
And I am trying not to think about the medical test I have to take next week. It sounds like a bit of hell to prepare for and the test itself is singularly unpleasant and painful. Please pray for me next Wednesday and Thursday as I prep for and go through this test. And oh yes. A negative test result would be nice.
No great spiritual content in this blog post other than the need to lean on God for my needs and safety and health ...Trust is the only option.
The summer is ending.
The first hurricane of the season has its sights on Florida. God whispers "Do you trust Me?" And I confess my trust in him. "Lord, You know I do" I know that that doesn't mean we will be unaffected by every hurricane that comes this year. But I do know that if it comes, we will be ok. Even if the basement floods, it could be an opportunity to clean out the downstairs. Just dump everything into a dumpster and wave to it "Good bye"
I know that God will be in control..and my fretting and fear and anxiety do not make the situation one iota better. Implacable Peace is my goal.
Speaking of "iota"'s I will be auditing a course in Greek along with my friend who is in seminary. She had an extra textbook and there is a series of 22 lectures on YouTube that are free of charge. I do not expect to finish with the ability to converse in Greek. But I do anticipate that it will help me in my Bible reading and study. And it will divert me by giving me something to think about other than bad memories.
And I am trying not to think about the medical test I have to take next week. It sounds like a bit of hell to prepare for and the test itself is singularly unpleasant and painful. Please pray for me next Wednesday and Thursday as I prep for and go through this test. And oh yes. A negative test result would be nice.
No great spiritual content in this blog post other than the need to lean on God for my needs and safety and health ...Trust is the only option.
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