Audrey Assad, Even unto Death

Friday, April 20, 2018

A Sorry Deception

God has been working on me, particularly in the area of honesty.  Do you know that " a lying tongue" will have no place in God's Kingdom?  (Rev. 21:8 and a number of other refs as well.)Well, that means that heaven is going to be very sparsely populated, doesn't it?  The good news is that God removes our sins from us as far as the east is from the west....buries them in the deepest ocean. (Ps 103:12)  What must one do to have their lies forgiven and buried? First of all you must be covered by the blood Jesus shed on your behalf...that means a relationship with God through Jesus Christ. And then comes Confession and Repentance.  These can both be difficult.  If you love your sin, then repentance is the tough one (it means "to change direction"). However if you hate and are embarrassed by your sin, then it is confession that you will struggle with.

Well I have a confession to make.  It is a very, very difficult one for me to admit to....but this morning as I was reading over the "Faith Notes" blog post (http:Faith Notes ) that is advertised in the post prior to this one...I read over the familiar words "Beginning in high school, I heard voices ..."  And God spoke to my heart and said "That is a lie."  I was stunned...but  as I thought it over, I realized that it was truly a prevarication that has been part of my medical record and my writings for years.  I was very sick mentally in high school. That is true.  But what is also true is that I do not clearly recall the first time I heard a voice speaking that was a hallucination.  As my illness progressed, so did the hallucinations.  And in that muddled up head of that young woman there is much that I do not recall.  But I have---for the sake of the story,--invented a scenario that did not truly exist.

I'm acutely embarrassed by this.  You know when you live a give life to a can really make it part of such a degree that you do not recognize it as dishonesty.  I tried bargaining with God this morning. Like: "What if I just no longer use that lie?...just sweep it under the carpet..."  God said "No. You must confess it."   "NOW,, LORD??? When all these people are looking at my blog today? Friends, authors, people that have been supportive... Couldn't I write this confession, say, next week?"  And God said "If your right hand offends you, cut it off.  Better to enter heaven one handed than not at all."  Cutting off a hand has GOT to hurt!  Well sometimes, so does honesty.

Wow..I have to share this. I was just looking for the reference to a lying tongue not having a place in heaven....and I encountered this verse:

Proverbs 21:6  (NASB)

The acquisition of treasures by a lying tongue
Is a fleeting vapor, the pursuit of death.
For me this verse struck home, hard.  As you know Isa. 45:2,3 is speaking about Treasures hidden in darkness.  Treasures as a theme in my life has been huge...It has nothing to do with money or has everything to do with my relationship to Yahweh.  
And if I am going to pursue treasure, I cannot also pursue a fallacy. 

So I confess to you.  I have embellished my story with detail that did not really happen.  The truth is that my early years are a jumbled mess of illness and I invented a story that sounded better than the reality.

I beg your forgiveness and understanding.  And I'll see you in the Kingdom!

Featured Guest on Fatih Notes

Welcome, you who have arrived and visited in response to the article on Nan Jones' website where I am the featured guest today.  Feel free to explore my blog and you are welcome to leave comments.

For those of you who have not seen Nan's article, here is the link to her blog:
Faith Notes by Nan Jones
 She has a beautiful blog and I know it will bless you.