Warning: this post can prove dangerous to your positivity.
I'm tired. Tired of pain. Tired of people. Tired of problems. Tired of the struggle it takes to do the simplest thing. I do not wish to go beyond my surgery on Wed. If it were to all come to a close there on the operating table, that would be just fine with me.
I went to bed early tonight, wanting to close the curtain on this lousy day....and woke up in horrific pain. There's no escape even in sleep.